ONE HEART ( the RECON experience)

at long last. RECON na!!!! October 1-3, 2010 is the day I had been waiting for. I badly needed this for I really need spiritual nourishment. I am starting to feel spiritual drought, I am starting to feel emptiness. I need something I dont know. I badly needed it....

With so much excitement for no concrete reasons at all, I attended the RECON. I feel that theres someone calling me. I am starting to hear. I am starting to feel.

I had so much questions to ask. I am needing an answer. I badly need it.

Thursday, September 30 we had our upper household at Lions Den. Final instructions and final preparations. Our parents, our Chapter coordinator Tito Lowell and Tita Inday had their final reminders. Division of batches kasi hindi kami pwedeng magsabay sabay because of our work schedule. all in all there were three batches. the first batch will be leave at 4 am, next will be in the afternoon and the next will be on saturday morning. I was on the first batch.

Walang tulog. 4 am ang aming call time. lucky enough and with ONE HEART wala ng nalate which is napakadalang mangyari na maging on time kaming lahat...

The travel

On the bus.... Ate emz and me prayed togethere. Prayed for a safe trip and prayed to prepare our hearts for the conference....

While traveling, I am figuring out whats in store for me. Am I really called to be there? Am I ready with pure heart?

The travel was good. A beautiful and perfect setting of landscape and seascape. on our left were beautiful mountains, countless rivers, vast ricefields. And on our right is the perfect seascape. The sea and the ocean. The horizon, a point where the water seems to kiss the blue sky. I pause and stared the horizon with amazement... Just like HIS love, its never ending..., thats what pop up at the back of my backless mind...

At around 10 am or so, we arrived at the venue. The Binirayan Sports Complex. Aha!!! we are I guess the first one to arrive. Nauna pa kami sa Registration committee. We decided to go to Gaisano Mall and had our lunch...

At 12:oo noon, padami na nag padami ang attendees.

At almost 2:00 pm the Conference started. The competitions started. We joined the amazing race and we won. Group effort and Team work is what made us won but more than the bragging rights of being the Amazing Race champion, its the thought and memories that we shared together that I would always remember. The runs, the tasks, the rides and I guess the Sibuyas and Pipino shake with no sugar or milk will top the list....

THE TALKS AND WORKSHOPS

GREAT!!! would be one word on how I could describe the talks. great topics, great speakers, great sharers. Everyone and everybody is great. HE is GREAT, all the time.

The Great topics were 1. A heart made for God. 2. Heart wired to Christ 3.Heart to Heart 4.One Heart for JESUS. and the workshop I attended is The best 3 Hours. With me in the workshop are Ng Angga, April, Ate Emz, Des, Eugene.

The talks and the workshops is what I am always looking forward when attending the SFC activities.

In these RECON my question were answered. He answered. I was so lucky and blessed that I attended. Im glad that I accepted HIS invitation. Im glad that I listed to HIS call.

HE and the recon taught me so much. HE tought me to have Absolute Trust in Him, Complete Dependence on HIM and Total Surrender on HIM. Thanks my Lord. Thank you for the answer...

with humility and humble heart, I COMMIT and I ACCEPT. still guide me LORD. still blessed me. I am not relying on my human capacity to fulfill my promise to you. I am relying, trusting and surrendering everything on YOU. YOU is the POWER. With my heart I offer my life...

I laugh, I listened, I sang (kahit sintunado), I danced, I praised, I glorify solely for my Lord. I never think of myself while doing this unlike before. I dont care how I look like. All I know is Im doing what my heart says. I am doing to express not to impress. Im showing my LOVE and PRAISE...

SATISFIED and ANSWERED. LOVED AND CARED. theres so much to share. so much to write about my overflowing RECON experience. this space would not be enough. But to sum it up HE ANSWERED. he cleared my mind and my heart. He took all the worries. I am ready to face another life with great strenght. Im ready to share and ready to be his child again. I Commit. I renewed.... with HIS guidance and power I know I will and I would....

THE TRAVEL BACK HOME

at 3 pm we leave San Jose antique. me and des started recited our prayer. with us are Bros and sis from South Negros bound for Boracay.

at the bus I was seated with sis des and sis Susane. We had our mini concert. the three of us is the star performer and the three of us at the same time is the ever loyal fans and audience. hahahah

I dunno kung anong oras na kami nakarating, we just had our dinner and had our seperate ways...

i sleep around 12 pm and woke up the next day at 11 am. i blogged and shared this... i had to fix myself and go out for a late brunch(?) and early dinner perhaps. then sleep again and be ready again for a work tomorrow.....

with so much love... thank you

OKEY LANG AKO

OKEY LANG AKO

ang laging sagot ko pag tinatanong ako sa panahong may mga problema ako. okey lang ako,.. kahit hindi...

I could never remember I said Im fine. lahat okey. Yon yong mali sa akin, mahirap ko aminin sa sarili ko na "hindi ako okey"". Lalong mahirap aminin sa ibang tao....

Hindi sa ayoko magpakatotoo. Lalong hindi naman sa nagyayabang ako. Sadyang mahirap lang talaga para sa akin. Minsan, dahil eto lang yong kelangan kong isagot. Kelangan para sabihin na OKEY nga ako....

I guess it will take time for me to overcome this dilemma . I am working on it. I know I will and I should...

Napag-isip isip ko kung bakit ganito. Ngayon napagtanto ko na. I remember a classmate in college na sabi nya, ako yong tipo nang tao na takot sa REJECTION. Tama nga sya. For all my life I had been trying my best to impress someone. I tried my best to keep my best foot forward. I tried my best impressing my father.

Ngayon OKEY LANG AKO. Okey kasi I accept and embraced the fact na we cant please everybody. We cant please everyone but we can love everybody. If you have much love in your heart, love will get back at you... millon folds.

Namuhunan ako sa LOVE. I could be a living witness, na love can move mountains. For a period of time bilanggo ako sa sarili kong pag-iisip. Ikinahon ko sa sarili ko na hindi ako mahal ng tatay ko. I thought he wanted me to be someone. Someone I dont, and someone I wont. I keep on telling myself he dont love me for what I am. But that was few years back... Iba na ang sitwasyon ngayon... Dala na rin siguro sa nagmature na ako ng konti. Pero higit don, alam kong dahil yon sa pagmamahal. Pagmamahal ng anak sa ama at pagmamahal ng ama sa anak... I may not be the person I am right now kung di ko napagdaanan ang stage na yon. That was just a phase in my life.

Okey lang ako may not be a fair answer. But more than this, eto yong sagot na di makakasakit sa mga taong nagtanong sayo at minsan eto din ang kelangang sagot para maging okey sila...

OKEY LANG AKO

is sooooooooooo blessed

renewed. inspired. energized.these may be how I would describe how I am if you ask me at this moment.

I had just renewed my commitment to my creator. from being a supportive supporter, great team player and good brother, I now accept the bigger responsibility being given to me. There maybe apprehensions at first, but my faith in the LORD will keep me go on "sa tama at tuwid na landas"(P-noy pahiram lang ng line mo).

As I had accept the new responsibility, I consider this as a great oppurtunity to serve my brothers and sisters and to glorify my Lord. I will be forever grateful to everyone in SFC for they continue to inspire me. Yes, being a Household Head is not an easy task, for you are entrusted to take care HIS flocks, but when you have faith, everything goes smooth as my favorite granite tiles for my dream home. We will storm heaven with prayers. Go according to HIS plans. Share the love and inspire his children.


Being an SFC member is not easy but, I feel so blessed. and hope you too.


as my parting word for this post try to think about this
try to count the blessings you receive everyday and you will end up as the luckiest person on earth, or try otherwise; dwell on mishaps and you will end up having more... why count the misfortunes if you can count the blessings....