some are really lucky

Friday night, 7:00 pm, I woke up because I got a message in my phone. I remember that we had our scheduled household at 8:00 pm at Bro. Dave's House. I heard Nilo and Lemuel calling outside my room . I let them go to Bro Dave's house since Randy is waiting at King Fisher farm and I am a bit worried to this brother since its dark at that place. I let them go ahead of me and i decided to just follow them after.

When I get to bro Dave's house, we had a short practice with some songs and then we started our activity. After the activity, we had our sharing. Whoow, I get to know more about this people. I get to know more about their lives. Nilo shared what he been through. Its hard, really hard. I admired this brother for the courage he had. He is a real survivor in every sense. Some brother also shared about what they've been through. Wow everyone has its own struggles in life. Everyone has it concerns. Everyone has problems that when you just look at them with your two bare eyes, you wont even suspect that somehow they are suffering. Its really good that in the community, we had our sharing from time to time. We had bunch of counselors that would always offer a sensitive and encouraging ideas. Lucky is me to be in this community.

Somehow, I get to ask what would be the benefit of sharing what you had been through in life? Well, first, to inspire others, inspire them of the stories and shared them the lesson you had learned while dealing on the problems. It is also a chance of sharing your burdens with other people. Its always nice and relief is felt when you know someone is listening to you. One benefit also of sharing your concerns is that you make other people realize that they are not just alone in the world having such concerns. Somehow its really good to know na hindi ka nag-iisa.

Hopefully, every concerns with this brothers will be addressed soon. Not in our own time but in God's time. Sooner, things will fall into its perfect place. In God we surrender all.

SFC Household

Yippee, we had our first household meeting together with our new batch of SFC. It was in Nilo's pad. We had discussions after and I was so thankful that I am with the group full of ideas. I was absent actually when the groupings is made, and I feel so lucky that the group I am with is the same group i handled during their training. It's a group I am truly proud of. As their Discussion Group Leader during their training, I learned many things from them and I hope they too learned from me.

We started at around 8:00 and ended past 11:00 pm. Reported to work thirty minutes late. (hehehehe). its a new set-up, hence Bro Dave had secured a manual for the household training, we discussed the first module. Its a very healthy discussion hence everyone really had great inputs. Amazing ideas. Whew. Had learned so much this night.

We also shared some personal concerns. Exchanged views on some current situations. Had shared a little something from our personal lifes So great and so true. everyone is participating. Everyone is inspiring. I'm looking forward for the next Household meeting.

And ooh.. before I forget, I should thank Nilo for the pizza. till next time bro. And speaking of food, let me share to you guys what I did to Nilo. hahahaha I actually ask him if he got what we need. He said yes. So i followed it up if he got food for us. He said ano ba dapat para makabili na sya? The pasaway in me strikes again.I ask him, where you not informed na hindi pwede yong binibili, kelangan luto nya. hahahaha. i lough my ass out when he replied, hindi', anu ba yan anung oras na pupunta pa ako talipapa at magluto after. haays. I said its okey, i was just kidding. So ending he got pizza for us. Thanks again bro.

The attendance:

Bro. Dave

Bro. Jun

Bro. Nilo

Bro. Randy

Bro. Lemuel

and yours truly

till next time bros...

back on track

• Its been a long time that i made my latest entry. I had some troubles and feels like i don't like to blog about it. The last few weeks has been like a roller coaster ride of mixed emotions, I get emo in short. I felt bad because I really don't understand myself why I am feeling those and worse, I've lost my self confidence.

• Lately, as I am reflecting and thinking of my future, I simply wrote down what I would like to achieve. There, I realize that I have so many things that I really wanna do and I really don't know if I could do it in time. And for that, frustrations attack me when I'm not on my best condition.It caught me off guard. I felt pressured and stress comes along. I been thinking it almost everyday and somehow I lost my tract. Too much of thinking of my future that everything seems too blurry. No fix route, no road maps, no visible signs and worse I'm in the middle of the crossroad which is totally stranged from me. It made me shaken. It made me weak.

• But I'm so thankful that i dint lose hope. I have strong faith In God. I just prayed and I kept in mind the famous phrase "this too shall pass" I keep holding on HIM. I trust him so much that i leave my life on him. At the moment, I'm feeling better. Better than before. I realized so many things. Everything really has a purpose.

• For what I been through lately, I realized that I get frustrated and depressed because I allow my self to. I entertained the thought of getting pressured and losing my faith in myself. I had been impatient. I want things to happen in my own time that I forget God knows the perfect timing for everything. I did not wait for HIS time instead, I want things happen in my own. I'm just so lucky that I have friends that had been checking on me from time to time. I had been so lucky for many reasons. I had been so lucky, very lucky for that matter.

• Now I'm back on tract. Still on the crossroads where holding and stepping backward is not an option. I might stay in place, look back but aiming forward. Forward and higher. This is me. A fighter that had learned lessons the hard way. A fighter that sometimes lose in my battles. A loser at times. But always striving to stand to where I get lost and failed, look forward and aim for the high. This is the new me. Better and Stronger.